I wish i could change things but i know i cant
I look for an answer that i will never find
The pain is not going away as i wish it could
How can i live life again like before
I cried my self to sleep and hope the pain will go away while i am sleeping
I woke up the next morning, my pain is still there
I figured out i cant live life this way no more
i wish i could disappear and i was never born
But its silly
God created me for a reason
God put me in a situation like this to learn
He wish i could learn and be wise
God knows best what his plan for us
I hope he is right this time on his decision
I keep all our memories in a box
I deleted some of it because i want to move on
I can not resist to look again if i keep having them
I do not want to break down in the middle of night to cry my self to bed
I have to move on and learn to live life again without u
U were once my soul mate, my friend , my family
But i am a stranger to u now
I love u too much to hate u
The only way to forgive is to accept
Patanjali wisdom is very wise
It will lead me to light and peace
Yoga will not heal my broken heart
But it gave me strength to move on
I can only find my true self only if i surrender now
Surrender now to live life again
Hi Cassandra, we can not predict or know what's in the future for us for we can only plan and fate will eventually lead us to what is pre-destined. I switch on the radio this morning and this guy re-marry to his current wife after 7 years of hell with his first wife and he didn't even realize it. 1. because he believe she is the one for him 2. because he never really open his heart and see that there are better person out there. He is now happily married with his 2nd wife and she's everything he expect, she would be.
ReplyDeleteMy first bf broke my heart and it doesn't help too that he went to the top Uni in Scotland and graduated as one of the TOP F1 engineers. Everything seemed so perfect about his life in our eye and it hurts to know that he doesn't even wet his eye when it's over, so I felt like he was using me all these while. But looking closely, he got divorced and re-marries and ended up with a control freak wife, regardless of his endless attempt working with a top F1 firm, his salary still not enough for his lifestyle..so GOD is FAIR!!!!
I kept on saying previously "life's a bitch"..well, life a bitch only when we made it so. We are the "lucky" ones...
Take it easy, life's definitely going to throw boulders at you only to make you wiser and stronger in the future...stop mopping for the "lost" one, he definitely is not worth your tears if he hurt you ;)
Thanks for sharing :)
ReplyDeletei am healing from the pain and i know i can go through this.
may love, peace and happiness be with u always.